Finally got my ENT appointment- Please just a few wise words.

[Mav]

So as some of you know, I've been waiting on this appointment for over a month now. It's on the 30th of March for a palpable lymphnode in my neck.

I've been waiting and waiting and thinking it will give me the some relief, but the "what if's" are sort of coming back

I've been doing REALLY well, a few set backs but really, really well! Now I really don't want to spiral with this upcoming appointment. How can I maintain my sanity?

I'm quite a brave person when it comes to appointments, believe it or not but it's just what if the ENT tells me he wants to biopsy or continue the process :( I just want it to end with that appointment. This lymphnode fear has gone on long enough.

[lofwyr]

My son had a row of palpable lymph nodes for months and months when he was nine. Some were bigger than my thumb nail. I was freaked the entire time, until I finally insisted on a referral to an ENT specialist.

The doctor ran his hands over the glands and looked at me, rather irritated, and asked me who referred him and wasted his time. He was very rude, but also, proved a big point to me. I never worried about swollen glands again.

Swollen glands almost always mean nothing, especially this time of year when everyone is sick and fighting viruses.

My son's glands remained swollen for another two years, then went away as mysteriously as they had come.

[PASchoolSyndrome]

You've had no symptoms and they have not grown this entire time.

You're good sista!!!

[Fishmanpa]

Got my "Told ya so" all ready

Positive thoughts

[Sixpack]

I don't know how wise my words are going to be but here goes .

I don't know your whole lymph node saga story... I am going to make an assumption that this ENT appointment was suggested by your primary for peace of mind because your primary has no more words to reassure you and thought perhaps an ENT would allay your fears? I mean God love these well meaning primaries doing this assuming it is really helpful... As I said it is an assumption that this is what is going on....

IF it is for real cause, my story below is gonna be the same any ole way... LOL

Since October 2015 at my annual mammogram to present, I have been going through a breast saga. This is not even a HA driven one. It is annual mammo gone 'wrong' so to speak. The mammo/US led to breast MRI. Which lead to two breast biopsies --one in each breast. The biopsies revealed papillomas that, as per usual, were benign. I went into these biopsies with the knowledge that they looked like papillomas and they were. That January I ended up with breast infection in my leftie where one biopsy was. Had US and put on anti-b's. April 2016 I had 6 month follow-up that lead to another biopsy in my right breast right where the other biopsy was. They thought it was two papillomas. Turned out to be fat necrosis caused by previous biopsy. A week later I had a breast infection there. Took anti-b's. Now zip onto Oct 2016 for follow-up mammo/annual. Guess what? that righty has another spot in it. I could have had another biopsy but BOTH radiloogists decided the biopsies are likely muddying the waters . So I saw a breast surgeon/specialist. She thinks I have a bad reaction to the biopsies . BUTTTTT. I get to have second opinion/follow-up mammo/sonos this coming March 20th at her facility.... My potential "what ifs" are: could be cleared up. Spot could still be there. Surgeon may suggest removing that duct or surgically removing what ever is in there IF there still is something or I could have breast cancer.

So I have my own "what ifs". Guess what? I will deal with whatever is thrown at me. And so will you.

[Mav]

Got my "Told ya so" all ready

Positive thoughts

You know, someone gave me the idea today to write up a bunch of positive notes on post it notes and stick them on my mirror so when I feel anxious, their all there readily accesible.

"Told ya so"-Fishmanpa is going on there first!