Thanks Terry, hugs to all of you. I really hope that I am on the way to conquer the "what if" in my life. My biggest worry is finding a job. I stress terribly before a job interview, I've had some really bad employers. I'm afraid, (ah the anxiety of fear) that another rejection will set me back. I have to stay on my path of healing. I am determined! I have had a lot of supportive feedback here and my therapist has been great, even though she wants me to be on meds. I'm a bit of a cry baby, but I come from a long line of sensitive females.