I think I have to accept that I will never be seen as attractive or accepted by anyone. Ive been in therapy since December and I like my therapist and a few weeks ago I thought I got further than I've been with my anxieties but then it stopped. I was really getting excited that I was getting better and going out more then it was ruined. It don't matter how I feel about myself because no one else thinks anything about me. I don't think I'm ugly and it took years after bullying to feel that I'm not ugly but no one else thinks I am. I go out and it's not made up most people look at me and have this look of disgust when they do. I don't feel there is any reason for this to happen i hate especially when it's a couple they make fun of me most. The guy looks at me like I'm ugly and his gf is better and gf looks like she thinks she's better. I feel hatred toward most people. They made me feel this way. I was doing good but it's hard to ignore when your against most people who don't like me I get one look then another how could I ever feel good about myself when all I ever known was rejection and being made fun. It's not right I should be able to go out and enjoy myself not be made fun of everytime it's not right I deserve to be accepted. I have a right to be no one understands he way I'm treated I get laughed at even when I walk with head straight feel good it don't matter it's not me it's them. I think where I live they have bad taste which is why they think I'm ugly im way better than the girls here. I hate everyone and I want to punch people in their faces. I've wasted snacks ugh time because of people and don't want to do it anymore but I don't know what to do I'll never be able to enjoy being out if I'm always being treated like this. I deserve to be respected as a human it's hard to ignore tons of stares dirty looks. What should I do