Originally Posted by
GaryP
Hi All,
I really need some advice if possible. I didn't want to open another thread. I am going on holiday this Monday and there's a few things I can't get off my mind. I am going through a bad period, where relaxing is very difficult, I'm sleeping all day, if I can sleep. Normally I get nervous before my holidays but I'm usually excited as well. I'm just not sure how I'm going to be able to cope while travelling. I am having panic sometimes when I try and sleep, threrefore worried my holiday will be ruined by this. I am finding it hard to relax, and the thought of going on a plane is scary, because I'm worried about feeling anxious. The thing is, i love planes, love going on holiday for the food, and have been on 5 holidays abroad since I was aware of my anxiety. Each time I had sleeping tablets with me, this time I have sleeping tablets with me, however just less than usual.
My doctor doesn't usually give me diazpeam, but my mother gave me 3, so I plan to take one on the plane in the hope it will give me slight relief, therefore I can focus on just enjoying the plane. I've travelled to many places with zero sleep, getting up at 4 am to go, and survived, yet at the moment, things seem harder to control. Quite simply, normally I worry about going, but I am positive that once I'm there, I will relax. However this time, I am signed off work, struggling worse, and concerned I will not be in a good place the whole holiday. I am panicking over sleep, sometimes it affects me, but been trying not to care, as eventually I will sleep. The holiday destination has everything I love. Supermarkets for any food i want, food every night that is better than what I eat at home, sun, a nice pool I can jump in if I am too warm, nice balcony, and finally, at night time I love walking and seeing different places. I'm not feeling any positive thoughts towards these now, which is making it tough.
Any tips on how to rationalise everything, and how not to react to such worries? I've saved a lot to go, paid a lot to go, and it just sucks that I am not focused positively on the fact, I'll be away home, in a more relaxing setting. I hate where I live, and being off work, I've hated it more.