I don't want to write what medical thing I'm going through at the moment because I would feel terrible if I triggered anyone off, and I'm not looking for any medical advice as the docs are dealing with it.

I am however actually going through something, it's the very thing that caused my HA in the first place. Has anyone been through similar? How do you deal with acceptance of it? This thing is pretty much chronic, so I'll need to accept it at some point. Right now it's affecting everything in my life. During the day, I'm afraid I just exist. When my partner comes home from work I feel safer and can be better and enjoy time with him and my daughter, but I need to be present for her all the time, 24/7, whether we're alone or not.

My biggest achievement would be to get through one whole day with her, doing really fun things and not being held back by my fear of 'my thing' striking me down when it's just her and I. I have a horrible fear of me collapsing when I'm out alone with her.

Anyways, I digress. How do you cope with HA and a condition together?!