Day 17
Another rough morning. Woke around 6am, very anxious - mainly about work (I have a big two week trial starting on Monday, so things are very stressful at the moment) - painful, upset stomach, sweats, shaking, thoughts going a mile a minute.
It is just so draining waking up every day and having to fight through these horrible sensations. It would be nice to wake up one day feeling relatively normal and rested. I have forgotten what that feels like...
Had a DR appointment today - she is getting my cortisol levels tested, as she thinks it is interesting I have this massive anxiety/need to go to the loo etc always at the same time every morning, and then get much better during the day. She also agreed I should just fight my way through the next two weeks and then assess how I am feeling once the stress has calmed down. She also agrees I should try CBT and meditation and continuing with exercise etc for a while before thinking about whether or not to go back on medication.
Feeling a little dizzy and things today, but I may have overdone it a bit at the gym which could be the reason.