Hi..
Its 4am as I write this because Im trying to calm down. I know I should get properly checked, but I'm almost scared they'll find something. I know its super unlikely. Im 19 and a female with no real family history of bowel cancer especially, to my knowledge?
It all started some time in 2016 I believe. I went to the bathroom and was startled by the blood on the tissue. I went to the doctor, but she dismissed it. Any symptoms, some cramping, subsided very quickly after the visit. It flared up again in august of 2017, only for months this time, until november, about. Cramping, bouts of diarrhea and consultation, gas and bloating.. Occasionally blood as well, though always bright red. I still think this is mostly due to piles of hemmeroids or something... New doctors visit, she told me it was probably nothing but recommended me to a GI. I never ended up following through with the appointment..
Recently I started an anti depressant, which made my stomach (maybe it was the anti depressants?) Flare up badly for a few days. Looser stools, gas and cramping, the nine yards. I felt a bit more of a.. More isolated pain to the right of my belly button for a day or so? Its calmed down a bit, all of the symptoms... But I just went to the bathroom and noted an almost odd smell to the bowel movement? Not super alarming, almost a bit like chemicals like? Maybe due to the medication, perhaps. Also small, black speaks in the bowl movement, but only in a small area! Google said it might be bleeding, which sent me into a panic attack again. Its probably something I ate, but I'm still.. :((((
I know I need to get scanned to wrest (or confirm) my fears.. I cant stop imagining some sort of mass inside of me.
Thank you for listening..