Originally Posted by
AnxiousinCali
I've been down this rabbit hole and it is AWFUL, not because I minded being gay, but because I couldn't for the life of me figure out what I was. For me, the constant questioning, analyzing, and lack of connection to my inner voice was the surest sign that anxiety rather than a sexual crisis was afoot.
If it helps, my final answer was this - I'm drawn to men physically and for romantic companionship. That said, there seems to be some part of me that is physically attracted to the idea of women, but not to sexually being with them, if that makes sense. I have lots of gay friends, have had lots of opportunities to explore the horizon, and I guess I'm just not inclined to go that route. So, straight with some fantasy-based curiosity?