So, been having abdominal pain for a few months now (been dealing with lots of other health anxiety, on the back of my divorce finalizing at the start of the year), which has migrated to being on the right side (though the whole belly can be tender if pressed).
Like so many others, i have made the mistake of googling.. and just am terrified the doctor tomorrow will find colon cancer. We have no family history of it, and my only obvious symptom has been pain (i have been losing weight, but that was a concentrated effort to eat less and better, as well as walking more, stairs, etc...). My bathroom habits haven't been horribly changed, but they have gone back and forth at times.
But it is so hard right now, despite everything, to not fear cancer. I have pain.. it can be localized. No matter how much i read on IBS boards and such, how other people have the same.. i worry that mine is different. And then i find the rare case where people say they are also 34 and had stage 4 CC.... and i just lose it. I am so afraid of leaving my daughter behind (her mother is mostly out of her life now.. which is sad, as she is only 4). I just have no idea how to handle this stress.
I have started therapy (next session is this week ironically), but in the back of my mind. it says why bother.. i will be dead soon, which just depresses the hell out of me more..