My flatmate was yelling at her baby earlier. He wasn't eating his dinner and she was starting to get really frustrated and 'losing it'.

This makes me on edge, because of how my father used to yell at me at meal times.
It makes me scared.

I just want to calm things and make them better.

The people upstairs are in. I can hear them. It's not loud just now but I'm on edge in case it 'erupts'.

There is a computer training at work on Tuesday. It's on site, but even so a trainer is coming in, and I just cannot tolerate anyone I don't know standing behind me, or looking at me. I am so agitated and vulnerable right now, even more so that usual, and that's saying something.
I have emailed my manager [she is great about things] but still I'm scared. I'm scared I'll lose control. If things won't be 'safe' I'll just have to be off sick.
Because technically I am not well.

It's only by a miracle I feel that I am getting into work at the moment. Work itself is usually ok, but travel is very very fraught for me. I stand facing the doors, and can't sit down unless the carriage section is empty.
And I walk at the edge of the road rather than be pushed aside by people who don't think I need any space.

I am taking Rescue Remedy. I am trying to Breathe. I can't take propranolol this late as I end up with insomnia.

If all else fails I can take a zopiclone at bedtime, in addition to the mirtazapine, but that's then and this is now. [8pm, bedtime not for another 2 hours.]

Help?