Hi all well I am nearly ready to go over the edge tonight.
had a appontment with the asthma nurse at doctors today as been doing a peak flow chart for 3 weeks because of problems i had with new inhalers
Now my doctor (who i get on with ) know of my health anxiaty and hospital phobia and put it on the top of my notes in case i had to see another doctor if she was off.wich has worked with other doctors i have seen.
well today had the appointment with asthma nurse due to still sometimes being breathless and still got a cough sometimes with blood in .
I had got myself as calm as i could before i went but god when i got in and she started talking i could feel the panic rising when i told her about the cough with the blood she said in a loud voice ohhh that is serious she then went on to get me to blow in a electric peak flow very fast of course after doing that i started to cough up phelm (but i did have a tissue handy) and i just said oh here we go again with the blood she said again in a loud voice ohhh dont show it to me ( I wasnt going to ) she said right i think we had better send you for a chest xray and i said doctor said it wasnt neccesary but she said well i am saying it is.
I said what is the treatment for the blood in the phlegm by now panic was very close she said oh they operate and cut part of the bottom of your lung away god panic came fast she must have seen it on my notes about my fears i felt so close to tear i just walked out
went down to my local chemist to see if i could get something for the phlegm as i think that is why i am having to cough so hard to get rid of it and the pharmasist was lovely he said are you alright and i felt a bit of a fool but he said he could see i was having a panic attact (shame nurse couldnt)
he then asked me what was wrong and he went on to say that sometime when we cough hard there is little vein that burt and he suggested i try some MELTUS for coughs and catarrh as that would break the phlegm up and make it easier for me.
I know i have emphasema but now the thought of having the lung out away is terrifing me took me 4 hours to calm down when i got home
do you think a nurse should say things like this
or is it just me being to sensative
sorry for long post