Current Situation - Rock Bottom

[BlueIris]

You're clearly used to what they feel like now; maybe try powering through and having some breakfast and a quick smoke?

[LittleLionMan]

I’ve just been for a smoke outside, and tried to stretch out a bit, but I’m trying to work now and just can’t stop panicking. It’s crazy.

[BlueIris]

Break your tasks down into small parts and complete one part at a time.

[LittleLionMan]

It’s not about the tasks, I would feel the same if I was just watching tele. It’s just what happens now, and I don’t know why. I don’t even know what I’m panicking about 24/7.
This is the issue. It’s so frustrating and scary,

[BlueIris]

Right. But if you're feeling like crap, you might as well feel like crap and get stuff done, right?

[LittleLionMan]

Yeah, definitely, I’m trying to gently work.
If I could get comfortable working again, then it would be a huge step. It’s the thing I’m best at (usually), and the thing I’m most confident with.

[LittleLionMan]

Your body is trying to get back to the status quo, however hard it seems to believe that

What do you mean by this?
Surely it’s the body that’s panicking every time I eat, etc.

[LittleLionMan]

There has been no let up in this whatsoever.
I’m in a real mess, and just don’t get it.

My head is just a swamp, it’s completely overwhelmed and incapable of doing anything other than cause me problems. I’m so done.

[Mr Polite]

There has been no let up in this whatsoever.
I’m in a real mess, and just don’t get it.

My head is just a swamp, it’s completely overwhelmed and incapable of doing anything other than cause me problems. I’m so done.

Hi Phil.
Sorry you’re really struggling.
I think it’s time to at least try medication again. It doesn’t sound like you’ve got much to lose.
Or try a good quality, high strength cbd oil. Some swear by it.
I don’t know you or your situation but going by how much you use forums to soothe yourself, I think you probably need to find friends and family, loved ones to help you get this from them as well. This might take a while but it worth putting the effort in. In my experience to best way to calm the nervous system is authentic connections with others.

[LittleLionMan]

Hi, I have an appointment booked with a psychiatrist to try and look at medications.

My family are less than useless, they just blame me, lose their temper and just don’t understand anxiety, they just think I’m being silly. It’s really difficult. I really do need to bring other people into my life, but I’m in too bad of a way to do that at the minute.

It’s the relentlessness of it all. I wake up every day in a mental swamp until it inevitably turns into panic attacks, and then just have to try my hardest to make it through to the end of the day. I don’t understand the mechanisms that can maintain anxiety 24/7.

I feel like I can’t get my mind off myself, constantly evaluating, trying to solve my issues, and figuring it all out. My mind is also too tired to do anything meaningful to distract in between the panic attacks, like I can’t focus on anything else anyway, and when I try and force myself to, the anxiety just shouts louder. I just feel so trapped, I feel like I’m going insane.