Hi folks
Just writing cause I am having a 'blip' at the moment. I had an acute bout of anxiety back in May which lasted until about Sept. I have since been back at work and have been doing really well.
However since Friday I seem to have slipped right back and am having terrible anxiety again. Along with the usual, loss of appetite, feeling sick, shaking and feelings of fear I am having more scary thoughts.
I have had a varety of these thoughts and have had some wonderful support from people. I juust need some more reassurance that I am not alone and that what I experiencing is NORMAL for anxiety.
I have told docs, and therapist about my thoughts and they always say the same, that they are nothing to worry about and not what I think (which is that I am developing scitzo or some other serious mental illness. Everone I talk to tells me I am not even close to that type of illness but I find it so hard to believe.
My latest fear is that I feel scared all the time and even scared of loved ones! No reason at all - just a feeling a fear sometimes when I think of them or see them. And then this morning another thought hit me "What if I don't trust the people trying to help me, like my therapist or my lovely, supportive hubby. It's like if I don't trust them then I'll never get well.
Sorry to ramble on so. I suppose I just feel so 'odd' having these scary thoughts. I just want to be worried about normal things like christmas and bills etc. Instead I seem consumed with the most ridiculous fears.
Can anyone relate to these silly thoughts??
Thankyou for reading this
S X