just about 15 minutes ago ive had the worst panic attack I have ever ever had.
I was lieing in bed and suddenly blood started dripping from my ear. THs was enough to start panicing since I was just lieing there doing nothing and had been for some time.
So dashed to the bathroom trying to stop the bleeding with thoughts like omg Im gonna die cos its something to do with my head etc etc.....
All my boyfriend was doing was standing there saying that hopefully it was something real this time so that I wouldnt be any trouble to anyone anymore or to the doctors. Kept on doing this saying worse things.
After about 8 minutes it was still bleeding so I tried to calm down as fast as I could even though I felt incredibly bad and was breathing badly, heart racing and felt so light headed and even had chest pains. It didnt help that there was blood over my t-shirt and hands and face.
Anyway I finally managed to see it in a mirror since my boyfriend wouldnt look. It was a hole like a cut at the top inner bit of my ear and the blood wasnt coming from inside my ear.
Still took my awhile to calm down enough but I managed to ring a friend who helped me though it abit.
I swear though it was the most worst panic attack I have ever had and the worst situation I have ever had. Even now im still thinking horrible thoughts that im gonna die or its gonna start again.