I've been suffering from anxiety for a while now and I feel like it's getting worse all the time. :( I can't even think back to what caused it. All of a sudden I just ended up becoming a bit shaky then it got worse and worse.
At first I was just a bit shaky every now and then. Now I can't eat, drink or do anything in front of people. I don't ever go out anywhere by myself, and if I go somewhere it'll be because I've got to go. I've got a job but I've been thinking of quitting and either finding a new job where I won't have to work with a lot of people, or just not work at all.
I'm really jumpy, my head shakes badly, I start sweating and I get asked if I'm ok. It really has started to bother me a lot more now and I've thought about just ending my life altogether because I can't cope anymore and feel like I'll never get rid of it.. So really there's no benefits of me being around... that's the way I've started to feel.
I've always wanted to either be in the army or airforce but because of the way I am, I'll never be able to do that... :( I can't work with people or do anything infront of people. I left college for the same reason, I was just too anxious all the time whenever I tried to do things infront of people, talk, show things on the computer, presentations etc.
I have a counsellor and I've explained to her this week that I just can't cope anymore and she's going to speak to my doctor. She's explained that I should try some medication and it'll give me a bit of a break for a while.
Does anyone have some tips or anything for me? :( I'm so sick of it.
Thank you for taking your time to read, I really do appreciate it.