Just an update really to last weeks miserable post. Things at home are getting better, my husband is helping more in the house and starting work later so he is able to look after our little boy for a bit, before he brings him to me at my shop. He is asking his mom for more help looking after the kids at weekends and holidays, so that is less pressure and today he sent me a lovely bouquet of flowers to my shop!!! On top of that, I have had a good week in my shop and even that seems to be looking up! Went to see my counsellor yesterday and unfortunately spent half of the sessions talking about my ectopics, but I think overall it is working because I am talking about things in a different way and beginning to feel a bit better - except for the missed beats. If they would go things would be easier to control, although probably a different symptom that frightens me just as much would probably appear!!!
Just thought I would share my week with you. It has been hectic, but ok and even though the ectopics got to me at the start of it, I wouldn't allow them to stop me doing anything. I have also decided that I am going to visit Cory's grave and my mom and dads and nan and grandads. On 15th May, it will have been 3years since Cory was born/died so I think this will be a 'good' time to visit him and also it is 10years next month since I lost my mom and I haven't been to any of their graves since we lost Cory and I feel now I have to face all of this and really try to get there. I used to go regularly until we lost Cory (birthdays, mothers day, xmas etc..) but have found it hard since this happened as I found it hard to go to Cory's grave and then would have felt guilty if I had been to everyone elses and not his! They are also about 20 miles apart, my mom,dad, nan and grandad are all in the same cemetary in Birmingham but Cory is in Walsall.
Sorry, this was meant to be a positive post. Apart from ectopics I am feeling better and would like to thank everyone who takes time out to answer my posts.
Love,
Linda.xx