i think i'm alone on this all the letters ive read every one is worried that they are ill and are going to die, mine is different i fear that everyone else is going to die, My mum especislly, we were in metro centre once and i looked at her and thought you look old at which threw me into a blinding panic, and i could not tell her what was wrong, i.ve had this fear since i was a child, when my Grandad died last year i thought i would too watching him was torture, but knowing i could not do anything to stop it, was terrible i have to small children and i dread them wanting there independence, some days i can think totally rationally about it all but sum days phew !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kairen x