Have been suffering with constant anxiety and panic attacks since mid january this year (after recovering 8 years ago from it and being well ever since). Ive had my seroxat raised up to 40mg from 10mg (not allowed any higher) and there have been times over the past few weeks when i have felt better, but there have been other times when it has been truely terrible!
My partners work have been brilliant and he has been allowed time off when i have felt i couldnt cope anymore, but it has come to a point now where he cant have anymore time off. The past week the children have been off from school and my partner has had a weeks annual leave too so mostly ive been fine. HOWEVER tomorrow he goes back to work and the kids go back to school and im sooooo afraid that as soon as he leaves me again im going to go swiftly down hill, even geting the kids ready on my own is so hard and then the school run....!
As soon as i woke up today i was feeling very anxious, cant stop thinking about tomorrow and the future and how im feeling panicy today about it all, let alone tomorrow!!!! (and the day after that and the day after that...)
When im feeling good i think my meds are working but when im not i just cant see how they can be?
I feel so panicy now and i no i wont sleep tonight...... i just want to be the confident person and good mother i once was , not this shakey mess who is such a burden on my partner.....!
I want to cry all the time but know if i start i cant stop.....
Sorry for going on and on, if you have bothered to read this far, please anyone give me some advice i really need it!!!! Please please help.....
Charlie x x x