Re: Fear of Choking
Hi Stuart
I think you have made a good move joining here, I am sure there will be others who can relate to your problems. I imagine posting your story took a lot of courage and I for one think you are very brave. Glad you have found somewhere that you can speak of your issues, this is a great place to do just that without rejection or judgement.
Although I cannot directly relate to your specific problem, I feel I can kinda understand some of how this affects you. Since my early teens, I have found it very difficult to eat in front of others in a social environment, including people I know really well. I was very self concious, eating tiny amounts of the meal even thought I was famished. I like you have made excuses as to why I wouldn't be able to meet for the meal, unless it was family and even then I was anxious. I am fortunate that my social life often revolved around drinking not eating. Then I still adopted a 'mask' and pretended to be something I wasn't, but that is another story lol. That said, it all boils down to anxiety/social inadequacy, and this is where I feel we have a common link as will many others here. I am much less anxious now, although it never affected me to the degree you have been. My main problem is OCD but that's getting better too.
You have good insight and I think you maybe can benefit from others input, especially to feel less isolated with this problem. It can be overcome most definitely, have you ever visited your GP and told them of your probs? This is a good idea as a starting point if you haven't already.
Fear/anxiety can cause all sorts of physical symptoms as you suspect, and as there is nothing physically evident, it's sounds like your problem is psychological in origin. I suspect this is indeed a fairly common problem, men definitely included . I can understand this problem makes you feel socially inept, but I am sure you can overcome this and lead a much more anxiety free life in general. With the right treatment that 'retrains the brain' like CBT for example. I feel this is a curable condition you have. I am sure other NMP members will be able to let you know of much more detailed info on the treatment side than I can. Have a good look around the menu on the left of the screen and I am sure you will come across some invaluable info and advice about this problem.
I hope this is the start of a better time for you, it's had a hold over you for long enough I am sure you will agree!
Keep posting, we r here to help
Best Wishes
Hope xx
Ps there is NO shame whatsoever in having this problem, I used to wash money cos of OCD ok so yr NOT alone xx
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