It has been so long since i have posted on here, which in one way is good, and another sad because i recieved so much help from this site a few years ago. I have thought of posting many times and do still come back and have a quick read. When i though of posting it was to say how much my life has changed and how happy i am now, i felt somehow that this was rubbing peoples nose in it, till i spoke to someone the other day who could not see the light at the end of the tunnel, and it did help them, so here goes,
A few years ago i was very depressed and anxious, i was working from home, my children were at school and i was in the house on my own all day and it was slowly destroying me, everything was a major issue, i was extremly paranoid, convinced all the time that i'd upset someone or people were talking about me, I hated being on my own and would cry most of the day, or try and sleep it away, every little thought multiplied into some major inccident, and once i had the panic in my head that was it i just jumped form one thing to another, once i calmed down about one thing my head would say Ah but what about if this happens and i would be off again.
But like i say that was a few years ago, Im working full time now, which i managed to study at home to get my qualification, I work with children with special needs, my job is so rewarding, and has changed my outlook on life. I got so much help on this site at a time when i needed it most, I learnt how to control my panics, how to stop them even before they start, im not saying everyday is perfect but i know now that i can cope,
If i feel that things are getting on top of me, i sit as calmly as possible, outside is always better for me, and i talk myself out of it, i sit saying all the time, im calm, im happy im relaxed, what the brain says the body believes and that is the most important thing i have learnt, i know if i sit and say oh i cant be bothered i feel tired i start to believe it, its all about positive thoughts, if i have the irrational thoughts i can now stop them as soon as i think it, by distracting myself with something that makes me smile, have something in your mind all the time, anything that lifts you even if just for a second, keeping busy is so important it does not give me time to let the bad thoughts in, and of course i had the support of some good friends on here of which i am still in close contact with, one who i go and stay with often, to which i will always be thankful as they have got me through some bad days and i hope have helped them too.
I hope this does not sound patronising, its hard to put into words and i could go on writing about it for days,
I just wanted people to know that you can get there, no one is stress free these days so finding a way to cope with what life throws at you is so important,
anyway sorry to babble i just wanted to thank the ones who helped and wish the ones who are struggling good luck and hope
take care
Kairen x
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to you and welldone, i think its good to have some support behind you but also it makes u realise how strong u when u decide enoughs enough and start to fight your way back to being happy. i hope tihs gives people encouragement to fight there issues too 
Ju x
