Thanks for all your replies! It really helps to know that i don't need to hide who i really am! even though i am trying to overcome it! it's just hard to know who you can open up to.

I know it will happen, i suppose its just daunting that you might find someone who will accept you and i never thought that would happen!

BUt i know it will! yeah and i look forward to it rather than wory!

thanks smiler xoxo

helen