Hi Everyone, I've been visiting this site for a while now and it has helped me deal with my stress and anxiety, just knowing your not alone is a help. So I thought I would tell you how my problems started, or how I think they started.
Over the past 4 years there has been alot of bereavment in my life, all being people who are pretty close. First there was my Dad who died suddenly (heart attack), but I had the task of trying to keep him alive while the ambulance came.
Then there was my best mates brother, he died from cancer, this too was also sudden and a shock, especially as he was only a year older than me.
Then my auntie, again died suddenly last year.
I though i was keeping it together, but then christmas last year I had my first big panic attack. The reason for this was beacause I couldn't make a simple decision on where to go for christmas day. As stupid as it sounds thats all it took for the stress levels to overflow.
Luckily for me a finally saw a doctor who realised and sent me for counselling and didn't just give me drugs. After eight weeks of counselling i am feeling much better. ( As does everyone I still have my off days!)
I have learnt to recognise when things are getting too much, not to take too much on, to realise that I can't keep everyone safe (even though I would like too) and to try and not to be too hard on myself, oh and to look forwards to the future and not back! Afterall our memories are more important to concentrate on than worrying all of the time.
Sorry, I didn't realise I'd babbled so much!
So there you go, thats my reasons for being here!
PS A really good book is "Face the Fear and Do It Anyway" by Susanne Jeffers is brilliant and inspirational.
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