I'm not sure I'd recommend depression as a way of losing weight bubble - but it certainly burns off the calories. I'm 6ft 3 and was always on the heavy side. I've hit 18 stone at worst. These days I am fairly trim and down to 14. Partly because of those dreadful shakes, and partly due to the fact I am stuck indoors most of the time and have nothing else to do but keep fit and try and burn off the excess energy.
Thank you for your kind words Oldhat. And no, no-one does. My family try but I know deep down they think I am just stuck in a rut and am letting myself get down. They don't say it. But until you've woke up already crying, with your body convulsing and wishing you had died in your sleep, you just don't know how bad it can be. All logic, all reason, all knowledge, none of it makes any sense.
I first fell ill in 1992, but I recovered from that and didn't suffer again for a while. By that time I had achieved a first class honours degree and earned a Doctorate with distinction. I'd presented lectures to halls of 250+ people. I'd got to the point where everyone who knew me believed I could go on and achieve something really meaningful. And then one day my world fell apart. I'm not lazy (contrary to what the current Government might want to believe), I'm not stupid, I'm not unmotivated. And yet now standing in a room full of strangers can bring on an anxiety attack that lasts for days. I had my life ripped from under me. And I know that virtually everyone who reads this will understand that and be in just the same boat as me.
There used to be a time when I felt at home surrounded by academics and ultra high achievers. Those days have long gone. Its been a long long time since I've felt I belonged. But these last few days at this forum have given me just that. A sense that the people around me understand me. And that they are just like me. People who had so much to offer, but who were denied the chance by an illness. Not just a mental illness, I hate that term because it suggests the problem is simply with the mind, but a physical illness. A real physical shift in body chemistry that changes everything about your life. In exactly the same way a shift in insulin effects a diabetic.
I know where you've been oldhat, and I hope everyone here understands that as much as they have been cheated out of their lives, the world has been cheated out of some bloody nice people who to a greater or lesser extent can't achieve all the things they should have been able to do.
DD