lisas,
i use to think id drive my car into people, so one day i sadi just do i....of course i didnt, i use to think i might attack a stranger, so one day i thought just do it......i didnt, use to think i might kill my family, so one day i thought do, again i didnt.........
just worry, the thoughts can feel very scary and frightening but they are just thoughts, not instructions,
you are definately without doubt not going mad......you were just testing yourself..........challenging the thought..........
its a thought not an instruction.....megs words not mine!! but very true.
doddy