can i jst run A quick Question past you all!

i suffer with terrible weird heartbeats. and im always checking my Pulse,Owever sometimes i check my pulse and my pulse has stopped but then its folllwed by A thud Like my heart has restarted But it starts really Slow.then it Has 4 short thuds, then it go's fast it scares me:( can anyone share that with me.

AM I OBESSED