I am due to have a minor op at the beginning of September. I have already put it off because of my depression. I have a fear of dying under anaesthetic although because of the meds I take and my asthma I will be having a spinal plus some general/sedation. I have a fear of being unable to breathe and choking on my own saliva. I know where these fears are coming from as my Mother died at a relatively young age of motor neurone disease. She couldn't catch her breath and died of a heart attack and choking on her own saliva. I fear dying at a young age too and as nobody really knows what causes MND or whether there is a familiar link no one can reasure me that this wont happen . I had a major op in 2007 and coped very well with the spinal although I was very very sick afterwards. The fear of dying is not dying in a peaceful happy way more of a feeling of being unable to breathe or choking on my saliva. Thanks for listening.