Hi everyone,
I just wanted to share the fantastic day I had on Tuesday as its really showing me that I'm making progress.
Firstly, it was my first day volunteering back at my old job. Was a little nervous going in, but settled in fairly quickly. I had been afraid that I couldn't do it/had forgotten how to do everything, but I'm feeling pretty good so far! It was also great because my mind was so occupied by getting stuff done that I barely thought about the consistent negative thoughts that I have been plagued with lately.
I was just on-line to share this experience with you Tues night when my friend called for a ride to the hospital---she was in labour!!!! Took her and her husband down, and 2 hours later her beautiful, amazing daughter was born, and I got to hold her when she was 15 minutes old! This experience was fantastic in 2 ways: 1. obviously, the baby!!! 2. I felt emotion!!! I've been feeling a little numbed since my meds kicked in, and this was a big boost to know I'm still capable to normal emotional responses!!!
I just have 2 mini-worries coming from this though: 1. I was feeling a mixture of happiness, excitement, fear (I could hear the screaming :( ), but overall the feeling was exactly like my acute anxiety...sweaty, a little shaky etc. Is this normal?
2. The next day at work I was a little more shaky than I was the day before. Is this because of all the excitement of the previous evening? Will this continue? I don't like the idea that such a great day will be followed by a crap day.
Thanks for listening to my ramble, any input would be appreciated!
xxx Lisa
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I think it's normal that you felt fear at the time as well as excitement, especially if it was the first time you were in that situation. I know I would have been a little scared too!! The way you felt was very normal so please don't worry. It's great that you have been doing well at work and feeling better. Keep it up!!
