THis is my first real post on this wonderful site and it has been a godsend to be able to come here as it helps to know there are others out there experiencing what I do. I suffer from anxiety, and panic attacks and a little OCD (the doctors think its mild and an offshot of my panic attacks and the way I process my thoughts going round and round) thats what they say anyways. What I need some help or support with is that I am having a hard time controlling it lately, its like a time bomb that is going to go off any second. I am really good at hiding it and I havn't needed meds in a while as I was able to controll it but things in my life are just getting to much to cope with it all. (split with my ex after 15 yrs, fell in love again, together a year and a half and now he is not sure if I am worth the effort anymore - long story short and he doesn't believe I have problems just emotional hormonal girl) can't sleep, not eating, waiting on the boyfriend to dump me as he says he is just taking it on a day to day basis and to wait and see, which is horrible for the way my mind thinks, now I am paranoid, scared, etc. everything and I have to work 8-10 hours a day with the public and I don't think I can hide it anymore. So... really sorry to poor this out to you but does anyone have any great ideas on some calming, breathing tips to get me through, I am in a small town now so I am embarrassed (I know stupid) to go to the hospital here, don't know what to do but I can feel a breakdown or something coming and I am scared about losing it again. Just typing this is helping and knowing that I can come here. THanks everyone any ideas ????