I've not been on for sometime, but basically I thought that everything was getting better. I was due to visit my uncle, who is seriously ill in hospital, but I had a few too many beers last night. Basically, having a slight hangover brought on a panic attack about travelling and going to the hospital, where incidentally my Father had stayed a bit before he died.

I got myself into such a state that I had ring my cousin and tell him I couln't go and explained why. Naturally, he was very understanding, but I still feel like a complete and utter...well I won't sware. What anoys me more is that last week I went up town (I live in London) and a really good time with no problems. Why did I let myself go over the top, when I know that the after effects cause me to panic.

Ian W