New, unsure & very mixed up..

[josfubar]

Ok here goes...
Its my 2nd day on Citalopram & despite being prescribed to start on 20mg a day, after reading up on it i decided to ease myself into things gently & start on 10mg.
So far, not so bad, i think..
Luckily no nausea or dizziness & no headaches or bad tummy..
Unfortunately though i am experiencing an increased desire to smoke! Arrgh, i hate it - been trying to cut down for months(the chronic anxiety, depression & eating disorder mean quitting is incomprehensible right now)
Since taking my first half tablet yesterday all i want to do is light up - even after just putting one out! I just wondered if this was something anyone else had experienced or if it was just due to my temporary initial increase in anxiety after starting these tablets?

Oh & i have to say as a recovering Bullimic i am absolutely TERRIFIED about the 'weight gain' problem i keep reading about!!
I have already put on 3stone 'recovering' & this has only added to the depression & anxiety! The thought that these tablets might actually make this worse is unbearable.
Its like a vicious cirlce of wanting to get better but being scared in case i just go back to my old ways - i don't want to be a 'happy puker' with just 3 teeth left in my head, i mean i might feel up to 'going out/socializing' mentally but physically - forget it!
So PLEASE if there are some people out there who have'nt put weight on or even (please god) LOST weight on Citalopram, let us know?
I desperately want to give these a go after a total nightmare experience with prozac - only just coming to terms with the mess they left me in, turned me into a total emotionless zombie, disconnected with the real world & oblivious to dealing with everyday issues(bills,debts,letters,forms..)
All of which are now only adding to my depression & anxiety!
So now i'm starting Citalopram & can't tell you all how scared i am.
I really don't want to be a fat homeless friendless zombie who has no idea whats going on anymore...

Only kidding - well, gotta try to make light of it, right?
Think thats enough waffle for now - first time nerves, sorry
Jo x

[belle]

Hi..
I've not personally been on any kind of medication, but as a "recovering" bulimic myself, i know how the weight gain could be scary...BUT...you need to rationalise this. Weight gain is possible, but does NOT effect everyone. I've reasearched this, a lot.

The majority of people on this med. actually lose their appetite and even if you put on a few pounds, once you are stablised on it, the weight will go.
It will NEVER make you 'fat'...what is more important? Sound mental health and the possiblity of a lb extra weight...or not?

x

[milly jones]

wishing you a warm nmp welcome

love milly xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[josfubar]

Hi Belle, thanks for the post..
You hit the nail on the head - its all about being 'rational' which is what i'm hoping the citalopram will start to help with..
But just gonna take it one day at a time - after decades of irrational thoughts, behaviour & mood swings, it may take a while lol.
Jo