TERRIFIED, Can't Believe I'm Not Dying ...
The meds (Ranitidine) to limit the acid in my stomach aren't working, I've had a night from hell and this had been going on for over 2 months. All this reminds me of how my mother died back in '77. She kept going to the doctors and they kept telling her there was nothing wrong. Then they finally took her into hospital to have her gall bladder removed and found she was "riddled with cancer" - she was dead in five days. It's like a nightmare scenario playing itself out again and I can't cope anymore on my own. Even the way she was treated in hospital was appalling. I can't believe I can feel this ill and have nothing more serious than gastritis and acid reflux. I wish I had the courage to kill myself, because this isn't living, it's existing in hell. I can't beat it however hard I try. SOMEONE PLEASE HELP.
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" ....all alone I had to find some meaning in the centre of the pain I felt inside." (Beth Nielsen Chapman 'Sand & Water')