Today I had a moment when I realised I cannot continue like this anymore.
I have recently come out of a 2 year relationship in which he was emotionally abusive and put me through hell. He made me feel like I couldn't do any better and so I just ignored his behaviour until one morning, and I felt strong enough to leave.
Since then I've recieved the odd message from him and I'm a bag of nerves. We live in the same area and the thought of seeing him terrifies me. In our time together he literally took away my will to live and pressured me into aborting our child, saying if I didn't, I would ruin his life.
I can't leave the house without being sent into a whirlwind of panic. I don't feel safe until I'm back home where I know he can't get to me.
Today I was stuck in traffic, in the middle of the city and the thought that I couldn't get away from that spot and back to my house, sent me into a panic attack.
I want my life back, I want to feel safe in my own home town and I feel like my life has been devastated.
