Originally Posted by
pink
Hello everyone
I'm sorry to have to go into everything again,
just got no one to talk to, I'm sorry for moaning.
Just can't get any peace, am off work for another 3 1/2 weeks but can't stop worrying over it. can't understand how its come to this, have always suffered from anxiety, lived my life worrying, don't know how to do anything else, so so tired, I can't go on like this. saw the occupational health counsellor through work 2 days ago and told her, she looked horrified and said, 'but your holding down this job' that things can't be that bad, but they are. Have gotten so used to holding things in, putting on a smiley face, trying to make people laugh, often at my expense, to like me. it hurts so much inside. all I see ahead of me are years of loneliness without a baby and pain, I hate myself so so so much. I can't put it into words. Got such sadness inside, no one knows, try to be strong for my mum as shes ill herself and I can't be open with this with my husband, we've only just got married, he's going to wonder why he bothered?? How can I bury all this again??
I'm so sorry for moaning, thankyou for listening
pink xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx