Re: i am i loosing it or else..... ?
Hi. I suffered for a long time with apparent stress/depression. Looking back I came to the conclusion that these were only masking an underlying general anxiety (GAD). Without wishing to guess at your problems its worth reading up on GAD to see if it fits your condition. I found that most of the books in the local library were about Panic Attacks and very little even admitted that more general anxiety existed.
I suspect GAD gets even less attention than other forms of anxiety as its less visible - the headlines the symptoms are less exciting and less visible and its not even a trendy/lazy diagnosis like self esteem problems.
Read the anxiety page on the left.
This one at AnxietyCare.org.uk which I found helpful.
And even the patient info at Patient UK.
Without meaning to sound harsh that weight gain is quite a bit and will be slowing you down physically. It might also be a symptom of eating a lot of low quality foods (cake, choco, etc) and the blood sugar swings from that will not help your anxiety.
I could type more but I think you'll gain most from reading the links first. Come back with questions in the General Anx forum or whereever.
Hope this helps.
PS: If it comes to it there are meds that help GAD - even some of the SSRI antidepressants.
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Kevin, Southend-on-Sea, Essex, UK
Probably GAD & Phobias. Anxiety and renewed Depression medicated (Venlafaxine). Trying to improve.