hello everyone. i have never posted on here before but i have read some of the posts and am so glad to have found people who understand how i feel. i really cannot talk to any of my friends or family about this. they will all think i am nuts, and sometimes i think that i am!
my health anxiety focuses almost entirely on cancer. it is weird because i haven't really had any "bad" experiences with it- i haven't watched a relative die of cancer, or anything along those lines (i'm 27, by the way). i'm not sure where it came from but it positively terrifies me, to the point of physical anxiety. in particular, i am petrified of melanoma. i have tons of moles and have read so many stories of young people who have died around my age from melanoma. i go to my derm regularly and she glances them over and says they look ok for now, but i always have the fear that they never REALLY know unless it is biopsied. if i could, i would have every last one of them removed , i don't care about scars. but i know that is not realistic. as it is, i am going back next week (just 3 months after my yearly check-up, i just cannot wait and want to ask her about a few that are worrying me again).
sorry for rambling on and on, but i wanted to know if anyone has tried any sort of counseling or therapy for this sort of anxiety?? i am at my wits end... i just can't take it anymore and don't know where else to turn. thank you so much for reading this and for making me feel that i am not totally nuts (or am i?)