I know that this is totally linked to my anxiety, but a feeling of pure wastefullness has taken over my life.
Until i start uni again in October, i'm off for another 10 weeks doing pretty much nothing. Well, actually that isn't true! I am going out every single day, whether it be working on a film with my friends, playing football, at the gym or down the pub. However, its still not enough and i feel awful and anxious.
My life is alright, good socially, but my anxiety is making me feel like i am doing f**k all with my life.
I did try to get a job - for like 3 weeks thats all i did, went round agencies, but i left it too late and ive had no luck - their are NO PART TIME JOBS LEFT IN BIRMINGHAM.
To be honest, i'm not bothered, i don't really wanna work and i have enough money to last me the whole summer.
But because i am off uni i feel like i am totally wasting my life - like im just getting by, counting down the days til i go back to uni.
Pure wastefullness and nothingness. But what else is there to do apart from..... chill............. I wish i could just chill and not feel anxious, worried, wasteful, emotional everyday..... i want some peace.
Anyone else ever feel like this?