Had a really horrible time at my brothers wedding. Most of you will know that i was adopted and i found out my parents got married and had 3 boys, so hence why i was at my oldest brothers wedding. Before i rabbit on my middle brother Mett i am close to and he feels how i do and we regret the years we couldnt spent together.
Well the wedding was horrible in the church although we arrived early we had no seats so had to sit on the brides side. Then at the reception my mother struggled to speak and my dad always in her shadow is too scared to talk to his daughter. Dan who was getting married didnt even ackowledge me, Simon or Sam. I was a farce and Simon was really upset and couldnt understand how a mother could be so distant.
I guess i learnt the hard way. I have being in touch with her for 15 years and she wanted that but after Saturday i can see that she doesnt appreciate Sam or me at all.
Whether right or wrong i have decided to break all ties from her, it hurts but not as much as how she treated me and being at my brothers wedding i was an outsiders and i felt so out of it and i didnt belong.
I want to write her a letter and i know some people will think that is harsh but if you met her you would totally understand where i am coming from.
She rejected me but it hurt more that she rejected Sam her grand daughter, i cant understand how anyone can do that.
I know i am hurting but i also know how she treated me i didnt deserve that and she doesnt deserve Sam or me to be in her life.
I have decided now on no contact but how to tell her i do need advice on that.
Love Sal xx
Dont mess up the best things in your life, just because at present you are unsure who you are.
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