missing my dad

[darkphantom]

hi guys
i aint doing good, ive been coping with taking pills to make me feel dopey and my blood sugar is high cause that will make me sleepy.
all ive done is cry i know it been 24yrs and should of got over it but some of you know the reason why. it first year without the support of my family and i finding it real hard, dad would of hated this.
i trying so hard but with other things going on which aint good, it would just be so easy just to keep popping the pills.
ive done one thing for dad, he didnt like me drinking, and this i think is my second week without drink, so far today i havent drunk i have felt like it, but i trying hard not to for dad and all my friends i have found here. i dont know what is going to happen today as i dont feel well writing this is hard, but if i can keep off the drink it be first time in 24yrs.
I sorry i miss him so much if i hadnt got married he be here helping me.
i feel such a failer and loser and waste of space, thats why my family left me.
love you all
thankyou for listerning
take care
love
susie

[Meg]

Susie,

Well done for not drinking thats a great step to take for Dad and for you.

I agree with Nigel - we don't do shoulds. It takes as long as it takes and that is ok.

Do ring some sort of bereavement counsellor like cruse or one from a local church or anything really as they can help you 1:1 to start to work through this and see it from a different angle and thinking about a different way to cope better.

What happened was not your fault and could easily have happened the day before, a month later, a year before - how long can you attribute it to your activities.

We're still here with you and you're doing ok.

Please take your insulin and mind your sugar intake


Meg
www.anxietymanagementltd.com

Your anxiety is the human representation of the pictures that you paint using your many vivid colours of revolving and reoccurring thoughts.
How big is your gallery ?

[EmmaJane]

Hi Susie

Well done for not drinking for 2 weeks. Its not easy but take it oneday at a time. Im sure your dad is very proud of you and would want you to be happy.

I dont know your story, but when someone close to you has gone, there is no limit on how long you will grieve or miss them.

Try not to be to hard on yourself.

Take care

Feel free to PM me, if you want to talk.

Emma xx

Keep focused, keep positive.

[pinkscrumpy]

well done for not drinking susie.

You are coping so well. We are all here for you.

love

MANDIE XX

[seh1980]

Good on you Susie!! We are very proud

"Life is too important to take seriously" Corky Siegal

[trac67]

Hi Susie,
I have been thinking of you today hun. You are doing really well with the not drinking keep it up. And remember what i told you before, even thought your dad isnt with you in person he will always be with you in your heart and your memories, and he would not want to see you sad hun.
Take care, you know where i am if you need me ok.
Trac

its "just a thought"

[Barb]

Hi Susie

Thinking of you hun, you have done brilliant for not drinking for 2 weeks. I know its hard for you today, but we are all here for you

You take good care of yourself

Sending you a great big (((((((HUG)))))))

Luv Barb xxxxx

[nomorepanic]

Susie

Thinking of you today and hope you are coping ok.

A big well done with the alcohol - that is a massive achievement.

Nicola

"Nearly all happiness comes into our lives through doors we don't even remember leaving open"

[Piglet]

Hi Susie

Thinking of you today and sending you a big hug.


(((((((((((((((((((s))))))))))))))))))))))

Really well done on the not drinking - thats a hell of an achievement.

Love PIglet

[pips]

Hi Susie,

Thinking of you hun. WOW what a achievement with the drink. You have done so well and your Dad would be so proud of you.

Please don't think you are a failure you are so NOT hun! If your family are being so harsh it's there loss not yours!

Stay Strong and definately get some bereavement counselling mate.

Take care Big Hugs to you.

Love PIP'S X X