I had my first panic attack in weeks last nite and another this morn. My anxiety is going thru the roof and my depression falling again. My partner is a drug addict as some of u no and i dont want to keep repeating myself and boring everyone but on firday i turned ny bk on him not because i wanted to but because i refuse to watch him kill himself and to protect my kids. He is in the chronic stages of addiction and the only thing left is death his family and i believe any day now that i am gonna find him dead sorry to be so morbid but this is so hard. Turning my bk on him is killing me and we have a son together who is 16 mths and i no he misses him terrible because of all this the last 3 days have been hell. I am finding it so hard to leave my room and i have had 2 panic attacks i hadnt had any panci in the last few weeks i cant sleep and my anxiety is making me beyong the point of exaustion. I dont no if iv done the right thing more for him and the kids rather than me. What i set out to do was take everything from him as they say an addict wont stop till they hit bottom my fear is that he doesnt have enuf time left to hit bottom so im trying to hutty it sounds mad yes i no but he is at thsi stage near death and after 27 hospital admissions 2 rounds of rehat 10 detoxes at home with me and coma theres nothing left.Have i dont the right thing ? Many say walk away let him go its his choice its up to him but i love him very much and there kids involved hes a brilliant guy outside of this but right now the fear of whats going to happen cause of what iv done is terrifying me and im gonna downhill it feels at rapid speed. When i was with him i had some control over the amount he took but now that im no longer there for him he has a free road to take as much as he like basically i want to no have i dont the right thing? or am i responsible if somthing happenes to him now cause i walked away and stoped all contact with me and the kids ?

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