hi all,

well its back to work for me today and i feel dreadful, i woke up with heart beating fast, stomach churning sat in the garden had 3 fags and still cant calm down, have taken my meds and know ill be spaced out very shortly... gonna try though it could either go one of two ways... i hate this illness I want to be ablet o wake up and feel alive and looking forward to the day ahead.. not dreading it incase i make a fool of myself or my chest hurts or i cant concentrate..it doesnt seem fair to watch my hubby walk out the door calm and ok.

I will post later to let you know how I get on, im trying to be positive, but my nerves are taking over....

have a good day everyone xxxx watch this space.