Hi everyone, im not sure if what I have is health anxiety or ocd - i think its ocd about health, mainly stds. Ive slept with one boyfriend, about nine years ago, before my hubby, and cant stop thinking that he passed on an std to me.
Ive been tested for all known stds and all results are fine. However am terriefied now that I must have some terrible std that has not yet been discovered and i keep waiting to hear about it on the news. But that would mean the std would have been around for at least nine years - surely it would have been discovered by now? Does that sound ridiculous to everyone or not?
Also since it was on the news about mad cow disease been transmitted thru blood transfusions am now terrified that it can also be an std. Have researched it and everything says 'no evidence' for it being transmitted sexually, however am worried that soon they will have the evidence that it can be. am scared :( I dont worry about catching it from bad beef, its just the thought of catching it from ex.
Am I just been completely irrational? please help if you can. I have a three month old baby girl and so much just want to enjoy her without thinking these thoughts all the time :(