ok well the first time i came on this website was because i started taking citlopram for depression, after taking them for bout 5 weeks i overdosed because i couldnt cope any more. since then i can not tablets as they make me sick and gag and i just cant face it. so i have had to suffer. i dont want to go back to the doctors coz i cant stand the way they judge me. i have just been on holiday to turkey with some of my family and had a great time (well most of the time) since i came back i have been getting drunk and stoned with my boyfriend. im finding it so hard to cope. in the past i use to have the occional panic attack but now it just seems to be getting worse and i just cant cope. i live with my auntie coz my mum doesnt speak to me so i havent live at home just over 6 months, but now its not going well were im living and i want to move out, im trying to get it all sorted but i just cant it all seem to much. i would love to work abord but i want my boyfriend with me and he cant because he has a son here. everything is so confusesing, im really stressed and scared of getting ill again, i have already thought about ODing again. any advice would be really helpful thank you.
Emma