I seem to be going through a bad time at the moment - I think I just need to vent.
Well, I feel I've progressed a fair amount this year, although how much of that is due to SAD I'm not sure. I'm looking at this winter as a test.
I suffered a bereavement a few weeks back and felt I coped with that fairly well - certainly better than the one last winter. But maybe as a result of that, I got a new pain which although it only lasted a couple of days, upset me. I also seem to have some IBS , but my GP has done an examination and says that I'm basically fine. I've even paid a return visit to the surgery for reassurance.
I now feel reassured, but am still feeling very stressed. I'm back to not being able to get up in the mornings because of my state. So after typing this, I'm going to get washed and dressed (yes, I know what the time is) and go for a 20 minute walk by the canal to try and ease myself.
I felt I needed to vent yesterday, so rang the No Panic helpline. She was excellent, although was a little bit ambitous in her suggestions. But perhaps she was just encouraging me to get angry by doing so. Her line was basically JFDI but I find that so scary - I need to progress slowly.
She was so good that she got me crying a bit - she hit a raw nerve of one of my root issues from way back so that was good.
And at the weekend I was too ambitous - it was just that two long standing fixtures came on the same weekend, and I hadnt recovered from the health anxiety. Grrrr!
I am going away to Germany next week for a few days, but of course I am not really looking forward to it, as I am worried about coping, especially the first day or two.
So I am going to make a concerted effort to get some regular walking in over the coming days to try and relax me.
Thanks for listening [8D]
Ray
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance, I hope you dance.
~Mark Sanders and Tia Sillers