Hi all, for some reason I was looking in my profile tonight and I realised I had been here exactly 6 months to the day.
At first my heart sank and all the negative thoughts came, phhhh 6 months , what am I still doing here. 6 months I should be cured. 6 months and Im no better etc etc, but then I thought different............. I have been here 6 months but I can remember the day I found this site ( had it found for me actually) I can remember how bad I felt, how scared I was, how completely isolated I was and felt a failure.Had no idea where to turn after suffering with this for over a year now.
Today?? Yes I have had a blip lately, am struggling with it still, i dont mind admitting,but I feel I have suceeded, I am at work full time, I can usually go into shops again now and if not I stand outside calmly.. people watching while sending my family in, I have just made myself have a full week in the staffroom,it is hard there is no getting away from the fact but sometimes you need to look further back than yesterday or last week to see what steps you have made. I am so greatful for being here 6 months now, I have made so may friends, some I have met, one I continue to meet up with, more I hope to meet very soon.
Not really sure why I posted really just to say, if you dont feel so good , keep going we all move forwards.
trust me Ive been there and am there , take care love Alexis,xxx
Alexis