I've been to work this morning. Quite physical but i don't mind because i like a little bit of money for myself. But what i can't handle is "the thoughts". Whilst working this morning all i was thinking was "am i going to black out and that will be it". I don't want to think these horrid thoughts, they are just there. I know on my way to work i felt a bit anxious because it was dark (winter weather) and i know i often think of being in bed asleep where i'm safe. Is this why i have the negative thoughts. Why won't my mind calm down? Suzuki PS i also feel "life isn't the norm" but do want to live. Can anyone make sense of this