i have this horrible extreme fear of dying. it is absolutely consuming me. i keep obsessing over it, even though i know there is nothing i can do about it. i just cannot accept that we all have to die, even though i know it is part of being human. i hope i'm making sense. i have told those around me that i feel like i'm in a constant war with myself- one part being rational and logical, the other completely irrational believing it wont happen to me or my loved ones. i keep crying about this and getting panic attacks. it's the last think i think about before i go to sleep and the first one when i wake up. when i wake up i feel this horrible weight just envelop me because of this. i don't want to keep living like this, i want to be happy and enjoy life. but knowing that i will die one day...just frightens me so much....