Some of you already know what's going on with me and the dentist, but for those who don't, I'll start from the beginning!!
For the past few years I had a very strong fear of going to the dentist...it wasn't a fear of the treatment, it was because my teeth were/are in a very poor condition! The truth be told I was embarrassed ! I was scared I would get told off like a naughty school girl who hadn't done her homework...so continuously even when suffering with toothache and abscesses put it off!
Now a few weeks back my thoughts were running away with me as usual and I suddenly got it in my head I had something wrong with me and the only way I would get this fear out of my mind was by going to the dentist and getting my mouth checked! So here I was in a position where I had to combat one fear to get rid of another!!
Anyway...I did it and was so proud of myself....and I never even got told off!!! LOL Even then I thought to myself why had I put it off for so long! Anyway after that the dentist said he was able to save 6 teeth at the front bottom and 3 at the top front!
So I had to go back, feeling a little less anxious and worried but still very anxious due to my anxiety! I sat for 2 hours in the dentist chair whilst he filled my front teeth making them look normal again!!!
I was so chuffed...I could semi smile again!! He also refered me to the hospital to have the remaining teeth he wasnt able to save taken out under general anesthetic.
So today I had an appointment to go and see the consultant at the hospital who had me have Xrays before I spoke to him. It now turns out that it was really a waste of time them trying to save my teeth and that the best option would be for me to have ALL my teeth removed!!!
So here I am tonight thinking about it TOO much as i do!!! Thinking what will I look like with no teeth!!!??? That I will have to go 2-3 months after having them taken out before I can have false teeth fitted!!! I have social anxiety as it is and find it hard leaving the house....how am I ever going to find the courage to do things like go to the shops and see other people when I'll have no teeth in my mouth!!! I'm just finding it really hard tonight!!!!
Thanks for listening!!! Also thanks to those who have supported me through this the past few weeks!!!!!
Hugs Claire xxxxxxxxx