Hi all,
I've recently joined this webpage because I m finding more questions than answers on the cause of my anxiety. I'll give you all a wee run down. The main symptoms I have are feeling really uncomfortable when eating out/in front of people. i.e. taking the girlfriend out to dinner, eating in front of her parents, going for work lunches. To generalise, I feel quite nauseous around meal times. They first kicked up about 4 years ago when I was going into my junior honours year at university, I went through a big stage were nearly everytime I was round at my girlfriends flat with her flatmates, I would feel very sick when eating round the table and the next morning I would be spewing my guts up without any explanation.
My first explanation was that as I started seeing my girlfriend around the time these things started, it must have been the change in routine I would now have to deal with on a daily basis. I was trying to juggle job,university,gym ( i was a gym fanatic back then lol) and having enough time to spend with my girlfriend. It seemed that I hadnt enough time to do anything, without getting rid of one of my set in stone routines. This made me panic as I thought i would be missing out on something all of the time, mainly experiences with my girlfriend.
Of course, like all proud and headstrong people, I put it down to a bug of some sorts and dismissed it, when the problem persisted, I began to seriously worry that something was desperately wrong with me. I kept thinking to myself it could be cancer or some other nasty and terminal illness, however, many trips to the doctor confirmed that I was in the best health i could be. But this didn't take the weight from my mind.
I began CBT at the beginning of the year and got through about 4 sessions, before my CBT therapist went off on the sick with stress and anxiety.....the irony I know. I found it was helpful to a degree, and I did begin to look at problems in a different light, however, my problem now is that, my anxiety is sooooooooooo bloody inconsistent its nearly impossible to lock down on a day to day basis what is triggering it.
For example, after CBT I was fine, I even managed to be round people who beforehand I had felt very uncomfortable with, I managed to eat meals infront of my girlfriends parents and my appetitte came back. But now I keep getting bouts of sickness in the morning which disrupt my whole day, and there isnt any malcious/depressive thoughts running through my head at the time.
I will add more to this thread, once I have a chance to sit down and write at it again, but in the meantime any comments or help would be great.
Can anyone help me with why changes in your routine cause such a reaction?
And why do you always feel your worse in the morning regardless of how many hours of sleep you manage to get.
All the best
Andy