Im back at work tomorrow after 3 weeks off with panic attacks/depression. Its the second time ive been signed off in 2 months - I only managed one week back at work last time and spent the whole week in a constant state of panic. As soon as I get in and sit at my desk everyone crowds round to ask how i am and I just want to scream and run out again. The feelings are so physical - my heart races and I feel like I am going to faint or have some kind of fit. Im on antidepressants but my doc gave me diazepam for emergencies - havent taken any whilst Ive been off work but I know Ill end up taking one in the morning just to get me there. Im so fed up of feeling like this - my job is very stressful and 'front -line' and sometimes i think I should just pack it in but I need the money. Does everyone have such physical symptoms as this - it doesn't matter how many times it happens I still feel terrified by it and of making a fool of myself. Ive always suffered with anxiety but these full blown panic attacks are a relatively new thing - Ive always been able to hide it before.
Does it get any easier??!