I've had a bad year, looking back I think I had a nervous breakdown in April which led to the way I feel, this was caused a few issues in my life (poorly daughter/scared of dying/swine flu thoughts)
This led me in a downward spiral which led me to the doctors who prescribed 20mg citrapromol
It took ages for them to work, over 8 weeks I estimate when looking back.
Thinks started to improve over time, until the latest bombshell, my Mrs is not in love with me anymore and wants a divorce, I'm moving out of the house next Saturday, no turning back, she's moved on and meeting new people etc...
I do feel down again but different to how I felt back in April, its weird but I know I can fight heartache etc from splitting up after 10 years, but I hate the thought of going back to how I was in April, that was the worst feeling I've ever experienced. Bottomless pit etc
I wonder if I feel this way because I still taking the med's.
The scary thing is my mrs blames the meds saying I'm not who I used to be.. I would come off them, shes scared of mental health which I don't blame her because I was before I felt like this.
This forum is great though, good to see other people feel the same and to see how they cope/recover!
Thanks guys and Girls, it helps just writing this